I Am Glad You Are Not Here Today.

I am glad you are not here today.

You would see that I have been crying.

You might want to comfort me.

You might want to ask questions.

You might want to hold me.

But I am most afraid that you would turn and walk away.

Would you walk away - because you would not know what to do for me

or

Would you walk away because you would not want to acknowledge my pain?

I am glad you are not here today.

To see the truth on your face would make me cry

again

tomorrow.

I am glad you are not here today.

You would see that even though I have said a lot,

I have remained mostly silent in my pain.

You might want to comfort me.

You might want me to say something.

You might want me to pretend I no longer hurt.

But I am most afraid that you would turn and walk away.

Would you walk away - because you don’t how to make me feel better

or

Would you walk away because you are afraid of what you might hear?

I am glad you are not here today.

To see the truth on your face would make me cry

again

tomorrow.

I am glad you are not here today.

You would see that I have been laughing.

You might want to rejoice with me.

You might want to ask questions.

You might want to hold me to know what happiness feels like.

But I am most afraid that you would turn and run away

Would you run away – because you are angry that I have found joy

or

Would you run away because you do not understand happiness?

I am glad you are not here today.

To see the truth on your face would make me cry

again

tomorrow.

I am glad you are not here today.